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01540 years ago today at 2:28am, my mother was super happy to NOT be pregnant anymore…I was 26 days late after all.  As the story goes, it was July 18th, over 100 degrees, my father was at work and my uncle, who was supposedly ‘on baby duty,’ was sleeping off one too many beers on the couch when my mother went into labor with me.  Pissed off that no one coherent was around, she decided to drive herself to the hospital in her little VW bug.  Apparently she could barely reach the pedals because her belly was so big.

Anyway, 19 hours later, officially July 19th, I was born and judging from the picture from the hospital above, I had both my bitchbrow and side-eye perfected from day one.

I’m not sure I can sum up 40 years in one blog post or a list of ’40 things I’ve learned by 40’…how does one sum up their life in that way?  A cacophony of words come to mind – painful, desperate, joyous, wild, free – and none could encapsulate it.  But I’m thrilled that I get more, even if only 60 more, even if only a few hours – I’ll take it and be grateful.

What are you grateful for today?

Day 28: Clouds

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Today the sky here is one BIG cloud, so I’m digging into the archives.  I had a roommate once that was baffled that I took so many pictures of the sky; she couldn’t see the point of a photo without a person in it.  But I look at this and see so much beauty, it calms my heart, centers me, reminds me to take a deep breath and enjoy every single moment.  Not bad for just one picture, right?

Day 19: Where I live

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Ok, so I totally cheated and did not take this picture today.  However, this is my favorite picture of where I live.  I took this picture the day I signed the papers for my new home, my first home.  I worked 3 jobs for almost 4 years, paid off debt and saved a down payment, and these keys are the result of so much hard work.  Tangible evidence of what I can do when I set my mind to it.

It’s a nice reminder as I set off on another journey…one that will require sustained focus on my goal, i.e. paying off my final student loan and ultimately my mortgage.

 

Day 11: An Inspiring Person

This one was super easy for me…she’s the first person that came to mind.

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My sister is whip-smart, kind, with a huge heart, and she just doesn’t give up, ever. She wanted pharmacy school, fought to get in, fought to pay for it, and now we are counting down the weeks of classes she has left (17!).  I’m so proud and inspired by her every day.

Day 9: Five years ago…

Five years ago this month, I was rushed to the emergency room after a massive seizure.  I almost died that day, and this medication became my new best friend:

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I am incredibly grateful for every day, every minute, every breath I’m given.  I’ll never take for granted how amazing it is that I’m still here.  To me, it means everything.

Day 7: What nourishes me

I could make a laundry list for this prompt, but right now, I’m going for my big two:

1). Canine love – pardon the blur, that’s as still as Heidi ever gets.  Dogs just get it…they are full heart, in the moment, unconditional love, and total forgiveness.  One of the most nourishing things in my life; I’m so happy they found me.

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2) Simplification!

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Over the last couple of years, I have been working to make my life as simple as possible…clearing clutter, taking stock of relationships, etc.  It’s amazing how much happier I am, how much my stress has gone down…it’s been an eye-opening journey.

What nourishes you?

Day 2: My favorite flowers

As usual, I can’t have one absolute favorite anything (except sisters…I only have one of those!).  My favorite wild flowers are the orange day lilies that grow everywhere in the summer back home.  You’ll be driving on some crazy, twisting, two-lane backroad, and all of a sudden the sides of the road will just be glowing with those orange lilies.  So beautiful.

If we’re talking cultivated flowers, I have to go with this one:

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*I think they are Gerber daisies?

Don’t they just look happy?  They always make me smile, which is my favorite quality in a flower.

What’s your favorite flower?