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01540 years ago today at 2:28am, my mother was super happy to NOT be pregnant anymore…I was 26 days late after all.  As the story goes, it was July 18th, over 100 degrees, my father was at work and my uncle, who was supposedly ‘on baby duty,’ was sleeping off one too many beers on the couch when my mother went into labor with me.  Pissed off that no one coherent was around, she decided to drive herself to the hospital in her little VW bug.  Apparently she could barely reach the pedals because her belly was so big.

Anyway, 19 hours later, officially July 19th, I was born and judging from the picture from the hospital above, I had both my bitchbrow and side-eye perfected from day one.

I’m not sure I can sum up 40 years in one blog post or a list of ’40 things I’ve learned by 40’…how does one sum up their life in that way?  A cacophony of words come to mind – painful, desperate, joyous, wild, free – and none could encapsulate it.  But I’m thrilled that I get more, even if only 60 more, even if only a few hours – I’ll take it and be grateful.

What are you grateful for today?

Day 28: Clouds

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Today the sky here is one BIG cloud, so I’m digging into the archives.  I had a roommate once that was baffled that I took so many pictures of the sky; she couldn’t see the point of a photo without a person in it.  But I look at this and see so much beauty, it calms my heart, centers me, reminds me to take a deep breath and enjoy every single moment.  Not bad for just one picture, right?

April Love Day 21: A happy memory

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Given how much I talk about my dogs, this shouldn’t be a surprise.  🙂

This was taken the first year I had Hank, with my old school SLR.  He was running around like crazy and would stop for a second, then take off again.  That must have gone on for an hour, until he fell asleep.  It made me laugh so hard.

Day 19: Where I live

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Ok, so I totally cheated and did not take this picture today.  However, this is my favorite picture of where I live.  I took this picture the day I signed the papers for my new home, my first home.  I worked 3 jobs for almost 4 years, paid off debt and saved a down payment, and these keys are the result of so much hard work.  Tangible evidence of what I can do when I set my mind to it.

It’s a nice reminder as I set off on another journey…one that will require sustained focus on my goal, i.e. paying off my final student loan and ultimately my mortgage.

 

Day 17: Life Changing Book

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As a rape survivor, Speak was really difficult for me to read.  It actually took me several tries to get through it, but it was the first step to the person that I am now.  I’ll be forever grateful to Laurie Halse Anderson for writing it.